Dilemma

I don't know what to call it. A dilemma, an anger or a problem perhaps. But no solutions found to this so called dilemma / problem / thing, ever since. I know, i knew it's my responsibility, but why should i have such feelings?? I am really pissed-off with myself! It's my problem, me, myself & i... & you don't have to say sorry, i'm the want who should apologize... I seek for your forgiveness, so please forgive me... :(