Cancer

Baru je entry suke2, gelak2... Abih je aku publish post tuh, received sms from kakak. Mamat confirmed lymphoma - kanser kalenjar... :( Aku x dpt tahan tears dh nih. Menaip pon rs x terdaya... He's such a good boy, very innocent & very obedient... Ni la dugaan for my sis and us as a family... Mmg dlm history ade family member yg ade cancer... So we all mmg dh aware bende nih, tp bile kene kt mamat... I cannot believe it! But aku kene pasrah! Sume dh mmg ketentuan Yg Maha Esa...

Monday nih dia kene amik air tulang blakang (mak penah amik air tulang blakang. mmg sakit gile!!!) I cannot imagine la... Procedure tuh mmg kene buat coz nk tau whether cancer tuh dh spread to tulang, jantung or kidney. Then lps tuh baru start kimo... Ya Allah kuatkan lah mamat & ko kuatkan la kami semua utk menghadapi dugaanMu Ya Allah...

I cannot stop my tears from falling down & so does kakak... She can't even talk to us, sms je td... But i told her that we have to be strong for him. That's the way to help mamat to be strong to fight the cancer... InsyaAllah...

Subhanallah, Allahuakbar!

notes: kakak kate procedure tuh sume kene buat harini. tp kakak mtk buat on monday, nk bwk mamat balik umah dulu coz been warded since 2wks ago... kakak nk dia puas2 kat umah w'end nih. td kakak bwk dia g shopping, belikan dia kasot raye. kakak kate dh lame dia mtk... :( kakak kate x tahan nk nangis dpn dia, x tau camane nk control... :(