Apology

I would like to apologize for my anger and rudeness on my writings these few days. I just can't help it. I got really pissed off by someone in the office. Surely there will be voices like "isk! pe kene minah nih?" or "tak padan ada anak 2, still using sarcasm?!" or "didn't she been taught on how to mind her words?!". Well, it's my fault, i accept all those critics. Istifar. Istifar.

But how would you feel when someone yelling or terjah at you out of a sudden and didn't even bother to ask the hujung pangkal? She didn't involve in disscusions or meetings. All she wants is only the updates. To make it worst, sometimes she even bothered to know about anything. At the very end when the uppers terjah her on something, she simply pointing finger on someones. If you are in my shoes, can you still act cool, like nothing happens?

Good boss listens, bad boss bossy! She came to you full of anger for explanation. When you try to explain, there will always something to manipulate the facts. Are all bosses always right? Not all the times. They are right when the decisions made are beneficial, not just for her but for the entire office as the whole. There are times she could be wrong. We are all human not a mutant. Why don't she just accept it? Hey! Nobody's perfect lah! You called here and there and when suddenly you realized that this could be your fault, you will simply melompat. C'mon lah, can you please act cool and clarify things professionally? You claimed yourself as a good and professional boss ever and very protective. You are good in everything, you can manage everything and anything in the world and i can even labeled you as know-it-all person. But why did you act like you are not one?

I am very sick of her. She treats people like we never go to school. When she's up to something, she'll smiles all the way. Senyum seindah suria, semanis gula kalau nak mintak tolong. No, not works, mintak tolong scan sp.ca form, boleh? Selfish!

This happened a few times before. Not just me, the entire team has experienced it. I couldn't care less. I know that she's the boss but now i totally lost my respect towards her. I'm not a kind of person yang suka mengampu. If you do s.hit to me, i'll do s.hit to you. No time for mesra-mesra alam with you. Never!

Patience is a hallmark for a mature person. However, it has limits. For now, all i have to do is just be patience. Get all my things done the best i can do. Slowly i will find ways to be a better staff. Not for her nor to 'tackle' her but it is for my very own sake! And thanks to her for teaching me good lesson. Don't ever be sarcastic to anyone and if someday i would been given a chance to be a boss, just don't be like her. Sucks!

Sometimes people got carried away with things and so do i. However, i hope that i'll always be realistic and stay focus to my objectives. I should learn how to mind my words whenever i am angry. To be able to control my anger in every single situations. I've to keep my words soft and tender as possible so that i won't have to eat them back! *thanks to KNV for the quotes. Last but not least, thanks to those supporters. I appreciate all your supports ;)

Now i am smiling :)