Tell me why? Tell me how?

The title remind me of yesterday's news on malay mail. There was a lady who found dead in her room and her last FB status was 'tell me why'. Tragic! Eii, takut! Hanya dia dengan tuhan je yang tau pe dah jadi sebenarnya, kan? Misteri!

Ok that's actually not my story here. I don't know lah, lately I have so many mix feelings. Segala macam rasa. Seriously I cannot think of the root causes of all these. Kang tiba2 I can be emotional macam hape. Nangis bagai nak rak, tapi tak tahu punca. Kang tiba2 rasa happy sesangat. Tah hape yang happy sangat pun tak tahu lah jugak. Am I going insane? Hehehe. Oh, bad feelings. Please go away. And please don't come again next time.

Oh, I have a question to ask. Korang kalau tidur nyenyak ke? Especially the ladies lah kan. Pernah tak korang ever tidur tanpa mimpi apa2? OMG, am I the one and only yang tidur MESTI mimpi! That's why everytime bila bangun tidur sure rasa letih tak bermaya. Nak2 nya bila mimpi yang memang guna tenaga. Ye lah, kot mimpi tengah mengejar anak2 ke kan. Mimpi tengah marah orang ke. Eii, letih lah! Mimpi beli kain kan jakel pun penat tau. Ye lah, penat pilih kain :P Is it because I think too much or too deep of everything eh? Worries yang over. Sampai terbawak2 dalam tidur. Maybe. Do you know how to overcome this problem? I need help! Kekadang tuh mimpi sampai takleh nak recall apa yang dimimpi. Pelik. Kang at certain time macam rasa deja vu. Eh, rasa macam pernah pergi sini lah. Ha'ah betul lah sebab pernah tengok keadaan nih, orang tuh memang pakai baju tuh. Eh, macam kenal lah orang tuh. Eh, dulu bukan memang ada eksiden ke kat spot nih? Eii, scary!

One thing for sure, dah jadi mama ni, ada anak 2 memang takkan tidur lena punya lah kan. Kejap2 terjaga. Tapi pelik, tidur kejap2 macam tuh pun sempat lagi nak mimpi2 bagai. Macam mana nak tidur without mimpi nih??? Isk! Nak kata tidur tak baca bismillah tak patut jugak. Nak tidur sure baca al-fatihah, ayat kursi bagai. Baca 33 kali astagfirullah, 33 kali alhamdulillah, 33 kali Allahuakbar. Tapi yang tuh tak pernah istiqamah lah. Belum sempat habis bace ayat kursi dah sampai Singapore. Hehehe :P

Tolong lah mak ni nyah. Mak penat hari2 nak mimpi... Heh! Oh, btw I have something to reveal here.

p/s: paling takut kalau nihgtmares. takut jadi bebetul. nauzubillahilminzalik...